Lightworker Laura

Although I’m a vinyasa junkie, ashtanga yoga is my true love.  I love, love, love ashtanga yoga.  It’s just so well designed and I feel so good, good, good when I’ve done it.  Yum, yum, yum.

And, vinyasa’s fun too.  I’m almost done with my training and I’m thinking how fun it would be to do a goddess / yoga workshop and incorporate some belly dancing moves into a vinyasa yoga class.  How fun would that be??  Would you come?

Let compassion transform you.  Allow yourself to see yourself in others — and others in you.  “We are all in this together,” is equal parts cliche and deep wisdom.  We are all in this together.  There is no separation between us. 

We are one.

Whatever happens to you happens to me.  Whatever happens to me happens to you.  If I help you, I help me.  If I help me, I help you.  Be compassionate to yourself and you spread compassion throughout the world.  Be compassionate to the world and you are compassionate to yourself.  There is no difference.  It’s a circle — a spiral, my friends.

We.  Are.  All.  One.

Be kind.

From Goddesses and Angels by Doreen Virtue:

Kali (pronounced CAHL-ee)

The often-misunderstood, powerful Hindu goddess of endings and beginnings, Kali ushers in life and escorts away death as the goddess of cycles and renewals.  Kali is one of the more powerful goddesses, and she has a forceful way of ensuring that her goals are met.  This forcefulness frightens some people, particularly those who don’t want to face endings as a natural cycle of life or those who are intimidated by powerful women.  Many stories discuss Kali’s ability to protect through destruction, but she’s loving and fair even when we don’t understand the mysteries of beginnings and endings.  Call upon Kali when you have an urgent need for powerful help; however, don’t tell her how to effect your desired outcome.  Just ask for her help, and then get out of her way while she goes to work on your behalf with Divine power and wisdom.

Hi, beloveds of heaven!  So, today I’m working on a personal little test (or whatever it might be called).  I’m putting my energy healing training, yoga breathing training, ACIM forgiveness training, seeing-everyone-as-a-child-of-God ATP® training into action.  It’s not easy, friends.

It’s one thing to read the books and go to the workshops — and practice in supportive, loving environments.  It’s another to be out there in the world working these techniques with people who don’t know anything about it, don’t want to know and don’t care one fig about the whole deal.  That’s where the rubber hits the road.  And, that’s where I’m standing right now.  Not so fun.

I’m overcoming the urge to hold resentment and grudges, to retaliate and look for revenge.  To do some energetic damage. 

I’m walking that fine line between holding a firm and healthy boundary for myself and lashing out at another.  It’s a tightrope walk and I’m trying to hold the balance.

This is what I mean when I really “get” how tough the walk is.  I really get it. 

I’ll walk with you in those tough times when you want to fall out of peace and neutrality — within yourself and within relationships with others.  I’ll call your angels to hold your hand and show you the wisdom and love that is truly at the core of you and the other.  I’ll call in clarity for you and surround your heart with love and Truth.

And, I’ll do that for myself right now . . . 

Love of the highest, dear ones!

Hey, friends!  I’m out there trying something new, stretching myself and my ideas of my own identity.  It’s not always easy to try something new and put yourself out there, but it’s so good to do it!

Try something new this year!  Stretch yourself.  Even if it’s scary — really, what’s the worst that could happen?

As I wrote before, I’m in a little bit of pea soup right now, but I’m working all the angles energetically.  Some of the angles are hard to see.  I’ve been told by another practitioner that some of them are very hidden from my view, so I keep meditating on them and asking (and correcting) for clarity so I can dry up this soup and walk on solid, dry ground for a while.

Friends, I just want you to know that I really *get* the journey of life, meaning I get how messy it can be.  How up-sy, down-sy it can be.  It’s interesting, this journey.  It’s fascinating and wonderful.  And, sometimes it’s messy and complicated. 

Journey on, blessed ones.

Hi, friends!

Between an intensive yoga training weekend (which was in equal parts exhilerating and energetically overwhelming) and working through my latest layer of personal growth / healing work, I’m feeling in a pea soup of un-clarity / dis-clarity / anti-clarity . . . whatever . . . you get the picture.

So, I’m groping right now toward clarity.

Not that I’m alone.  Oh, I know the angels and ascended masters are right there walking every step with me, but at this stage of the journey it’s about me figuring out what’s up and what I need.  They’re there, ready to assist, but they say that I need to discover the secrets myself (and, really, that’s pretty much my style anyway). 

Urggghhhh, friends.  It’s not easy.  It’s not.  I’m making progress.  Oh, yes.  I’m making progress.  I’m making one sloppy, but productive step at a time.  I’m sloshing through.  This leg of the journey is messy.  It’s taking me down a pretty dark alley right now.

But, without meditation and energy work it would be so much worse!  I’d probably be sick right now.  I’d probably have a fever, a sore throat.  I might even be vomiting.  So, although this leg of the journey is intense, using the tools I have makes it much less so.  That’s what I mean that energy healing is changing my life.  It’s making it richer, more meaningful and more comfortable without draining it of any of its spice and adventure.  I’m just getting farther faster.  And, that’s a good thing.  I like that.

But, friends, it requires courage!  Lots of courage.  And, I had to overcome some very rigid and tough resistance.  I did not want to encounter some of these inner demons.  I had done a very good job of sealing them up in a nice little locked container for nearly 20 years.  I didn’t really want to see them get out.  I did a good job — you should have seen the state-of-the-art lock system I put in place on that box — it took some effort even getting the locks to open.  But, the angels helped with that and stood right by me as I opened the lid and looked inside.

Yuck! 

It was a couple of tough days, but they’re almost all cleaned up now.  And, although it *was* intense at the moment, looking at those ugly things, that moment passed much faster with the help of the angels and Yuen than without them.  I’m grateful for their presense. 

I’m grateful for what I learned from the demons.  I gained more compassion and let go of some judgments — for myself and for others.  That’s worthwhile.

It’s scary sometimes to feel so much.  It’s overwhelming.  But, it’s so rewarding too.

I would not change a thing.  (would I?)

Friends, it’s going to be great.  15 hours of yoga instruction:  some practical, some physical, some philosophical.  These weekends are always a combination of exhileration and exhaustion for me.

On this yoga teacher training journey I’ve had to confront some fears.  Mostly fears of being a “bad” teacher.  Not just a poor teacher, but a Bad Teacher.  You know, one without ethics or compassion.  One who makes her own ego and needs central to the teaching relationship.  It turns out I had some past life stuff in there from times when I took advantage of students and was not worthy of their devotion.  So, I had some pretty strong resistance to having “students” in this lifetime. 

I’m pleased to say that with energy healing and just getting in there and doing it, I feel much calmer about that issue now.  Now, I’m working on just getting all the instructions clear in my head . . . 

Anyway, it’s been another leg of the wonderful journey.  Some unexpected stuff, some joys, some challenges, some karma, some clarity.  Mmmmm  . . .   really good stuff.

Hey, go out and try some yoga soon — it’s pretty magical in its own earthy, physical way.  Oh, and definitely meditate.  Connect with the body and the mind — and the heart and soul.  Blessings today!  -Laura