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It’s a new day and a new outlook.  My last post may have come through a little gloomy.  Sorry about that.  I’m not really gloomy.  Tumbly, but not gloomy.

I’ve been doing this “working on myself” thing for quite a while, and I’ve had times like this when my inner work takes me down rabbit holes, through fun-house mirror rooms, and bumping and tumbling around.  But, I’m good.  I know it’s part of the process and although I don’t *love* it, I accept it.  I’m working to be patient with it — the discomfort of it.  I think I wrote that before — the yin-yoga of it all.  Sitting still and breathing through the discomfort.

Just like with yin yoga, I know this discomfort is purposeful.  At the end of this will be ease and bliss (heehee — I just corrected a typo:  bless instead of bliss.  True, huh?)

Anyway… I can feel the end is coming, though I don’t know what that looks like.  And, we don’t sometimes.  We know *something* is going to happen — it *has* to.  But we don’t know what.  And, I suppose at the end of our lives, or from a very high perspective, the not-knowing is the fun part.  The excitement.  The sizzle of life.   (I try to keep that in mind as I sit still and breathe through the discomfort.)

The other night I was playing The Game of Life with my family and it was fun — I love boards games, I always have.  It was funny to see which of us took it all so seriously — who got stressed about being “poor”.  I couldn’t care less what happens in the game — it’s just a game.  There’s always next time, or last time, so who cares?  Just spin the numbers, move your car and see what happens.  I remember noticing that the last time we played my daughter won the game by suing me a half a dozen times and by winning the lottery almost as often.  Huh?  What a weird “life”.  This time there were still a fair number of law suits, but no one won the lottery — but two people found a buried treasure (really?).  Strange.

But, you guys, maybe that’s the thing.  It’s sometimes just simply “weird”, this life.  It’s just stuff.  Good to just move through it step by step.

As a novice student of A Course In Miracles, I do try to see life like that — like a game or a dream.  Not all the way real (even though it sure feels real, doesn’t it?).  It can provide some perspective and can ease some stress when you see it like that.  Maybe this time we’re “poor”, or we’re “lucky”, or we’re “in harmony” or we’re “tumbling”.

But, just do what you’re called to do in this moment — and it’s always love and forgive, grow and learn — and then the game changes, doesn’t it.  Loving and forgiving are enormously powerful forces — and if you do them right here, right now, about this thing — the situation *will* change.

It’ll seem miraculous — like finding a buried treasure.

Have fun … try not to take it all so seriously.  But, seriously forgive and love and keep stepping forward.

Love, love, love!

Hey, again!  I know I’ve been away for a while and I had the intention of writing a little something many times over the last few weeks.  But, then I didn’t. 

For many reasons, I guess.  A little writer’s block.  A little feeling unsure.  A little feeling shy.  A little feeling confused.  A little something that I can’t quite express in words.

I’ve been tumbling around a bit lately.  Like a tumbleweed.

It hasn’t been so comfortable, this tumbling.  It’s hard to know which way is up sometimes.  It’s hard to feel grounded, or even connected when the energy is bouncing all over the place and pressures and sensations are coming at you from all angles.

Because when I write my blog, I write from the inside, not the outside.

If I wrote about the outside, I’d write about how great everything is!  And it is!  I work at an awesome, beautiful yoga studio with fantastic colleagues and inspiring students.  I’m part of a wellness team with other really talented and gifted practitioners.  And, my clients are pretty-much the coolest people on the planet.  I love them and it’s a joy and an honor to work with them all.  I’ve done a few angel circles lately and working in group energy again is really fun.  So invigorating!  (So much so, I really can’t sleep after one…but it’s all good, so worth it!)  My angels love me and I have sweet, wonderful friends surrounding me.

But, I don’t write about the outside.  I write about the inside.  My journey.  My work.  I do it because I think that’s most real, I guess.

So… I’ve had a couple of cool thoughts lately that I thought I’d share.  Like about how sometimes we really welcome change and sometimes we resist it and fight it … even when we think we want it.  It can be tricky, can’t it?  Like at a traffic light.  If you’re in a hurry and the light changes red, it irritates you.  But, if you want to send a quick text to someone (safely), you welcome the red light.  Same event, very different reactions and feelings.  And, what about when you’re in a hurry, but you drop something on the floor — you really don’t want the red light, but you’re sort of glad it showed up…  You know, complicated feelings like that.  But, then later it seemed sort of obvious, so I didn’t share it.

Anyway, I tumble.

But, then the angels remind me that when you put an ordinary stone into a rock tumbler it comes out looking extraordinary — you can see all the beauty and uniqueness of the inner qualities of the stone where you couldn’t see it when it was dusty and rough.  [shrug]  So I get it.  We tumble sometimes to reveal what’s within us that can really shine the most beautifully.  I trust that they’re right — I know they are.  But, being in the tumbling still isn’t fun, is it?

If you’re tumbling too, I reach out my hand and heart to you.  If you’re already shining brilliantly, then I bask in your light. 

Within you, wherever you seem to be on the outside, is beauty beyond imagination.  Wisdom and brilliance.  Have courage to tumble, if you need to.  It’ll be worth it (the angels assure me — and I, in turn, assure you)!

Blessings and love today!  -Laura

So, for the last few days, I’ve encountered some mild frustration on the roads here in Wisconsin (strange, because since I learned to drive in Wisconsin, I usually find everyone’s driving behavior familiar and predictable).  I’ve gotten behind people — actually whole groups of drivers who collectively want to drive five miles under the speed limit (also strange… usually people have been driving five miles faster on these roads…)

And, of course, I’ve got places I’m trying to get to — yoga class, picking up my kids, running Christmas errands … you know.  So, I feel antsy and annoyed when someone else is forcing me to move slower than I want to.  I feel powerless (maybe even a little (gasp!) like a victim).

So, last night I was on my way to the yoga studio and was tied up behind car after car that was not driving my preferred speed and I lamented at my angels, “WHY???  What’s going on here?”

I’m sure you can guess what they said… “Laura, dear one, we ask that you slow down.  Have patience.”

I say back, “I just want to get THERE — I don’t want to be HERE!”

To which they replied, “It’s not the time for you to be there right now — now it’s time for you to be here.  You will get there in time, but not at this moment.  Accept where you are.  Notice where you are.  Don’t miss this opportunity by looking too far into the future or wishing to be somewhere other than where you are right now.”

I understood what they meant — in fact, I’m sure I’ve delivered the same message to clients I’ve worked with.  I understand that they’re not talking about traffic and the yoga studio.  I understand.

And, then I realized it’s an uncomfortable place to be, isn’t it?  We just want to get where we want to be — sometimes when we’re in the middle of change or transformation, it’s uncomfortable and chaotic.  We just want what we want and it’s hard to be patient.  The angels encourage us to have faith in the present and in the future and not try to force anything.  When we force things, we alter the energy of it — we distort the energy.  When we allow the natural unfolding of our lives, we experience it with more clarity and truth.

So, I do my best to relax.  You know what I mean?  Have you tried yin yoga?  Sometimes we’re asked to do yin yoga in our lives.  Relax into the discomfort.  Breathe.  Trust that this too shall pass.

Blessings!

Wow, I’ve been away from my website/blog for so long, they totally changed that behind-the-scenes stuff and I almost couldn’t figure out how to get back.

Sheesh…

Hi!  Thank you, sweet, gentle readers, for the nudge to come back.

I sit here now not knowing what to say.  In a way I have books and volumes to write.  And, in a way I have nothing to say.  Funny…

But, I’ll tell you that I’m well and I’m walking my talk right now.  I’m working on myself.  Shedding some old skin, some old layers.  Going deep into some dark, swampy places.

I’m learning (well, not learning, since I already knew it, but I’m experiencing) that I am not a victim, no matter what my mind and my ego would have me believe.  I’m not a victim.  I’m very powerful — I’ve created everything in my experience.  Yes, even the stuff I don’t like.  Even the stuff that hurts me.

I’m working to remove that stuff I don’t want.  And, it’s not always easy because those things have complicated root systems and I want to get it all up and out.  I planted that stuff a while ago and I had my reasons for planting it.  Some reasons were deliberate, some were unconscious.  But, it was me and my reasons and now I’m revisiting the layers and consciously discerning what stays and what goes.

Yeah, it’s cleaning out the basement, I guess.  [giggle]

I encourage you to keep up the great work.  Keep cleaning.  Keep forgiving, keep looking.  You’re making progress — don’t judge yourself.  Love yourself.  Be kind to yourself.

Live and love on purpose, my friends!  I love you!  You are Light.

Blessings today!  I won’t be away so long this time.

Wow, talk about instant manifesting!

I just asked my husband today when I’d be getting a new local phone number (and even a new smart phone?) so that I could plan to announce it and buy new business cards.  Well, never a guy to stand around, he immeditately got me a new phone number and shut off my old one!   When I said to him, “Whoah, I needed some time to communicate that to people,”  he immediately then reinstated my Memphis number and planned to have the switch-over happen on Friday.  So, a lot of manifestation happening pretty quickly around here!

So, as of Friday this week, my new phone number will be 262/225-3779.   Until then, you may reach me at my 901-area-code number. 

Okay, so now to manifest a smart phone . . . 

Blessings and love to you today!  -Laura

A few years ago, or whenever — I can’t remember anymore — I heard of a practice of wearing a karma bracelet.  You set the intention of releasing all karma with someone/something and you put on a bracelet that you wear around the clock.  When the bracelet eventually breaks, your karma is fully released.  I always thought it sounded pretty cool.

About a month or so before I left Memphis, I bought a cute little bracelet that had a charm on it stamped with the word “karma”.  The card that came with it talked about positive karma — like whatever good you put out will make its way back to you.  I liked that concept and felt it was time to embrace that reality for myself (with my work and self-healing practice, I spend a lot of time identifying negative karma that needs to be released).  So, I bought the bracelet and have worn it for weeks. 

It’s gotten tarnished and tattered (didn’t look so cute after a while).  My daughter (my little fashion policewoman) kept asking (with a twinge of impatience and judgement in her little voice) if I was still wearing that bracelet.  I said yes, that I’d wear it until it broke and my karma was fully released.  (At that she’d roll her eyes, no doubt thinking her mom is a complete nutcase, and walk away.)

I wore it to yoga everyday and I’d watch the little crystal bead jiggle around on my wrist as I worked to hold postures and maintain my breath and focus.  I wore it to shower and to sleep.  I wore it when I cared for my children and I cleaned the house.  I wore it when I said goodbye to old friends and neighbors in Memphis and hello to friends and new neighbors in Milwaukee.  I wore it when I was stretching and growing and when I was resting.

Today I wore it during my ashtanga practice and when I talked to a very dear friend from Memphis.  A friend who brought me layers of karma and walked with me while I cleared them.  A friend who I love deeply and who I appreciate completely.  Within an hour of the conversation, the bracelet broke.

I was moved.  Joyous and a touch nostalgic.  I realize an era has come to a close, but I’m not sure what’s coming next.  I’m in an in-between-y place right now, but I feel free and clear . . . and ready.

My karma bracelet broke!  (Feels a little like my water broke on a birth of some kind.)  I welcome what is coming for me!

From an email to my clients:

Hello! 

I’m writing from my new home office in Sussex, Wisconsin (it’s a northwest suburb of Milwaukee).  The view around me inside the office is a mass of cardboard boxes full of files and books — not inspiring.  But, the view outside my window is wonderful!  Right under my window are hostas, ferns and giant hydrangeas.  Beyond that is my big backyard that backs up to a grassy space and beyond that acres of beautiful trees that are, at the moment, swaying in the breeze.  We see deer back there and at night there are dozens of fireflies
dancing around.  It’s really magical at night!

My bedroom has a huge window and I wake up every morning to glorious sun rises.  It’s pretty great!

We survived the move well — nearly everything arrived (we’re mysteriously missing my daughter’s nightstand and the kids’ shower curtain) unbroken.  The house has a more casual feel than our last house and it suits us really well.  It’s a bit smaller, which also feels right.  I’ll miss my nice big office in Memphis, but the view from this one really can’t be beat.  We’re having some painting done, which looks great so far.  We’ve had all four grandparents visit, three cousins, two aunts and some close friends.  It’s really nice to be Home
(in the physical sense).

As we know, big transitions always bring up layers of stuff.  For the last few years I’ve been learning to keep my energy separate from other people’s stuff, rather than taking it on and suffering along with them.  And, that shift for me made the move a lot easier.  For example, our moving truck driver ruffled all the other movers’ feathers quite a lot (alpha male stuff, mostly, some power/control/victim stuff) and in the past I would have felt responsible for that (don’t ask me why — I know it sounds crazy, but I would have).  This time, when I started picking up the friction that was happening, I began doing energy healing on it, and it felt lighter (at least from my perspective).

Some lingering layers involve my dog.  He’s really old — over 15 years old.  He’s really my husband’s dog — they hunt together and are really close.  It was hard on them both to be separated since April 1.  Cooper’s (the dog) health has really deteriorated over the last few months and he has a lot of potty accidents.  It gets tiring, cleaning up the mess.  I’m still working on it, but I know in addition to age, this issue also includes some anger energy (being p*ssed off, being in a p*ssy mood, you get the picture).  My work in this is to see how I’m surrounded by other people’s anger and that I try to clean it up.  I’m taking responsibility for other’s emotions where it’s really not my work.  It’s really theirs.  And, when I can separate out other people’s emotions and energies, I can get to the root of my own, which also probably contain anger and victim energy. 

This is when it gets tough — to have full clarity and awareness in the middle of a messy situation (pun intended).   Can we see beyond the task and situation at hand to see what the Universe is trying to tell us so that we can heal it?  We are really never victims.  But, sometimes it can be hard to see what’s what.  I get it . . . I really do.  We work to maintain clarity — to maintain
connection to our higher self and our guides. 

Can we respond instead of react?  Can we pause in the midst?  Yoga friends: can you pause between your inhales and exhales?  Can you find the eternal moment when it presents itself, especially when you feel it’s way too hectic, too crazy, too messy?

It’s just work.  It’s just an opportunity.  If we miss this one, another one will surely present itself.  No worries.  You’ll get there — all roads lead to the same place! 

And, I support you in the work.  I send my love and encouragement and the certainty that you’re doing great!  Just keep going, one step at a time, one breath at a time. 

Another little snag for me was that our old internet provider disconnected my old email address before I had a chance to forward my current and stored emails.  So, if you’ve sent me an email lately, I’m bummed to say I no longer have it, and maybe never even got it.  I hate that I’ve lost some stuff that I wanted.  But, it’s also strangely refreshing to have a totally clean slate imposed on me. 
(If only I had the courage to do the same with that pile of boxes of miscellaneous who-knows-what in the basement!)  It wasn’t my choice, but I guess the universe felt that it was in the plan.  So, I move forward (and, notice that I did not mention the internet provider?  Fellow ACIM students:  I forgive it all!  )

Here’s my new contact information:

Laura Watson
lightworkerlaura444@wi.rr.com
I’ll be ready to do phone sessions (or in-person sessions, if you want to visit me in Milwaukee!) after August 1, so let me know if you’d like to schedule something.

Sending love to you all!  Blessings of clarity and an awareness of the beauty and brilliance that is you!

Love of the angels, Laura

Hey, friends!  Well, it’s time for my move Home. 

My last day in Memphis is Friday the 15th and I’ll be back online and working again on August 1.

I probably won’t be posting during this time (I’ll have limited access to my computer and the internet).

As soon as I can I’ll be sending an email out with my new phone number and email address.  My website will remain the same, but if you’d like to be on my mailing list, please send me message with your contact information and I’ll add you.  My email will be available for about another month and then I’ll be shutting it down.

I’m planning to put together teleseminars in the fall — so you can call in and I’ll do a guided meditation and a little presentation.  If you’re interested in that, please let me know.  The first one I offer will be free (so that I can get used to the technology and work out any kinks with the process).  I hope to offer that in September.

It’s a very cool thing to be going Home — like a hero’s journey, actually.  I’m sure things will be coming up and I’ll share what’s appropriate.

As it is, this move has brought to me a lot of learning, growing and healing.  Some people I’ve met along the way have brought me layers of work to address and it’s been good.  A golden blessing to me (though at times the work was messy and difficult — it was wonderful to move through it all.  I’m deeply grateful to the soul teachers I’ve had lately — I love you dearly!)  One person in particular — sending deep, eternal love and gratitude to you.  We will all meet again, be it in this physical form or in another form in another dimension and that is a very cool truth to hold!

I love you, Memphis — you have filled my heart with some unexpected and precious treasures!  Bye for now!  -Laura

I took a yoga class and although I didn’t feel particularly strong today, the practice felt great!  I did what I felt like doing rather than pushing myself into all the postures.  That’s luxury for me — it’s pampering.  I did what I wanted to do and it felt good.  If I had pushed instead of resting, it would have felt bad today.

Then, later I had a massage and I felt completely pampered.  Why don’t I do this more often, I asked myself.  Well, I’ll be getting massages more often from now on.  I felt so good in my body.  I did energy healing whenever I felt strong sensation filling my field of vision and hearing — I corrected the energy of what was stuck in there and the tight spots eased away.

My shoulders are holding a lot of tension right now, and that tightness in my shoulders is affecting my backbends in yoga.  Only the backbends that require pushing into my hands, though.  The drapey kind of backbends feel sensual and wonderful.

That’s how I’m feeling right now in my body . . . sensual and wonderful.  I spent a couple of hours in the pool today and I felt like a mermaid.  I sat in a chaise lounge in the sun and I felt like a goddess.

It was fun to pamper my body today — doing things that felt sooooo good.

It’s really nice to be in connection with your body and to love being in it.

Do you love your body today?  Do something wonderful for yourself — something that feels amazing!  You deserve it!

Yes, it happens.

Lately I haven’t been doing something I’ve wanted to do — I’ve been told by my own angels during meditation, and from several trusted colleagues that I shouldn’t do this thing because it wouldn’t be for my highest good.

But I really want to — there’s a very strong pull to do it. 

It really doesn’t matter what it is . . . we all have these things that tempt us.  Maybe it’s a bag of chips and a container of French onion dip.  Maybe it’s a pan of brownies.  Maybe it’s a cigarette or a bottle of wine.  Maybe it’s buying something you don’t need.  Maybe it’s contacting someone who’s not good for you.  Maybe it’s that juicy piece of gossip.  Maybe it’s blaming someone else for your stuff.  Maybe it’s running away when you should be facing something head-on.

Anyway, we’ve all got our “stuff” to deal with and sometimes the temptations are very great.  Then, we try to pause and heal the layers underneath the desire.  Because, really, it’s not about the brownies — it’s whatever you’d be better doing instead of eating the brownines.  See?

If the brownies keep you from having to deal with a tough conversation with someone — better to put down the brownies and muster up the courage to confront that person, or create that boundary, or take care of yourself in an appropriate way.

It’s really not the brownies, or the gossip, or the other person. 

It’s really something within you that’s right under the surface.  Step with courage toward that place and know that you don’t step alone — your angels have got your back, my friend.

Love and blessings to you, Laura