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Hi, dear ones.  Sending waves of abundant love to you all.  The angels wrap you up in their beautiful wings and shower their blessings of peace on you.

I don’t know about you, but I’m the type who likes to figure stuff out.  I like to get to the bottom of the whys of life.  I really like analytical stuff.  I took statistics three times in college!  (Actually, the courses were required for my degree, but still . . .)

The angels say, though, that our tendency to work things out mentally can be a hinderance to our spiritual opening and flourshing.

Some things, we just simply won’t figure out, no matter how hard we try or how many times we turn it over and over in our heads.  There are things that just won’t make sense, just can’t be cataloged and filed away.

They say some of those “mysteries” of life are just the ego’s way of keeping us spinning our wheels in our limited perceptive field so that we don’t delve into the Mysteries of life — those deep, profound spiritual questions that keep us moving toward enlightenment and awe.

Those little mysteries are so compelling, though, aren’t they?  They keep us engaged.  Sometimes it’s a grudge or rivalry that you don’t really understand or remember the source of.  Sometimes it’s the outer manifestation of stuff — illness or tragic events or “acts of God”.  Those things — even though they don’t feel small at the time (they dominate our mental space) — are actually fitting into very small spaces in the overall picture of our Lives.  The image I get is a piece from a 1,000 piece puzzle — it’s just a tiny bit of the overall picture.

The angels ask you to step aside from these little mysteries — if even just for a few minutes a day.  See yourself beyond that.  Try to imagine yourself standing in the purity and expansiveness of heaven, looking at yourself on earth and begin to find perspective within your heart and mind.  Look at your life with wise knowing of the fullness of who you are and where you come from.

You are a beloved child of God and you come from the very heart and mind of pure, unconditional love and acceptance.  You are greatness and greatness surrounds you.  That is the Truth of your spiritual self — and that is an eternal state of being.

This lifetime with its challenges, tests and hurdles is not eternal — it’s very temporary.  It’s almost like an obstacle course — you know, one of those really hard, military-type ones.  You may not always feel like it, but you’re up to the test of this obstacle course.  You’re conditioned well.  You know what you need to know.

Remember that this knowing resides within you — deep within you.  You can begin to access this deep wisdom by quieting the mental chatter of these outer mysteries.  As you do that — quieting and centering — you will begin to find yourself drifting to that place of deep Mystery.  That is divine wisdom, living within your Self.

Ask your angels to accompany you as you journey to that inner place — they are joyful travel companions.  Don’t put any pressure on yourself to “get it right” or “perfect” — those are little mental mysteries that hold you back.

Just let yourself float inward.

As you continue to practice this, you will begin to receive brilliant, divine guidance about your life.  Very likely you will receive instruction to forgive all outward appearances of situations and of people.

Then, as you continue to forgive lower vibrational experiences like competition, hate, anger, fear and rivalry, you will begin to feel yourself running parallel to the wisdom that brought you the guidance.  You’ll have awakened that part of you to the point where it does not take special meditative preparation anymore.  It’s just on.

And, that, my dear friends is a Mystery that you will have no need of figuring out.  It just will be.

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Whooh, Nellie!  (As a friend of mine would say)  I’m coming out of a little flu-like thing (whatever it was).  Yuck!  Sore throat, headache, fever, crazy internal thermostat . . .  What a nuisance!

Of course, I did plenty of Yuen energy healing corrections on it but wish I’d have taken homeopathics much earlier in the process.  I’m feeling tons better now.

Part of the Yuen protocol is to find out if there are “issues”, “triggers” or “choices” contributing to the illness.  One of the triggers was my taking on a new layer of my own learning and understanding about forgiveness.  It’s that radical, complete forgiveness that Gary Renard talks about in his books.  I was trying to incorporate the concept more fully and more broadly — and more immediately.  And, my ego slammed me!  Literally right upside the head!

ARGHH . . .

So, I kept working it, kept forgiving it, kept knowing that everything was okay, that this “illness” wasn’t even real, it was just something that part of myself created to keep me off track (at least for a couple of days).  The angels sat with me, offering their companionship and comfort, yet allowing me the space to work through the learning associated with the test.

Finally, almost the whole thing lifted when I chaperoned a little field trip to a ballet/hip-hop/modern dance troupe’s performance.  [angelic harp music]  I *love* dance!  I took a bunch of dance for years — all types of dance.  Except, I have to say hip-hop and I’d have to have some pretty serious instruction to find that groove, but it would be fun to try!

So, as I wrote in a post a while back, the ego will continue to give us challenges to overcome on the path and the fastest way to emerge from those tests is to work on ourselves.  Forgive everything that contributes to the issue, heal everything from the past, release what isn’t ours, address what is.  The tests and challenges are mirrors that we can investigate.  Believe me, it’s not always fun.  It’s not always pretty.  But it does move you forward.

It was tempting at times to feel like a victim (like when I was lying on the floor, exhausted after putting away a load of laundry, or when I couldn’t find the energy to wash the dishes), but really, there was nothing victim-y about it.  It was just an opportunity to put the concepts into practice (I’d have chosen a little easier test, but, oh well!).  And, there will be more.

I say, “Bring them on!  Let’s keep the momentum going!  I’m ready to work the layers!”

Blessings to you as you work yours!  Love and healing . . .

Hello, my friends!  Oh, I just love the angels’ sense of proportion and balance.  My last post was a call to bring you out of the depths and now the angels want to invite you back into the depths.

If you’re coming from the Christian tradition, you may be aware that yesterday was Ash Wednesday — the beginning of Lent.  For many people the 40 days and 40 nights of the Lenten season is a time for deep reflection and contemplation.  Some traditions call for a sacrifice to be made — giving up some luxury or pleasure for this time frame.  That’s a step toward purification of body and mind, so that the spirit has a chance to swell and bloom.  Other traditions call for a deeper study of ancient texts or an increase in prayer and meditation.  These are ways to deepen our connection to the divine and to bring Christ into our hearts and souls.

In past years I have found Lent to be a time of significant spiritual awakening.  I come from the Protestant Christian tradition where we take on deeper study or prayer during Lent.  Those times have been very fruitful for me.  Taking on a meditation discipline for 40 straight days can be a challenge, but the challenge we feel is coming from our ego (who doesn’t want us to realize our full relationship with divine, but instead wants to keep us trapped in a power struggle with God).  Once we learn ways to overcome the struggle (or just muscle through it), we come to a place of beautiful peace — a glimpse of heaven on earth.

So the angels ask you to try meditation or prayer — or strengthen your practice.  Meet them in the center of your perception.  Like the spiral (my favorite spiritual symbol) that circles around and around, moving always toward the center, the angels invite you to travel that path of inward movement through deep breathing and visualization until you near the center.  You’ll find them there, waiting for you, loving you each moment.

Sit with them there and drink in their beauty and peace and know that that is who you truly are.  You are beauty and peace.  You are calm and wisdom.  You are generosity and light.  You are in the world but not of it.  You are a child of heaven.

Yes, you are.  You are loved beyond human measure.

In this center space, you may find things that need to be shed from yourself — old worries, false beliefs about yourself, limitations that no longer fit, old grievances that are ready to float on, old grudges that no longer serve anything, other people’s false teachings that you know in your heart aren’t from God.  Release those to the angels.  Just hand them over.  They’ll gather them up and fly them heavenward where they’ll be transformed by the love of God into something of beauty that can bless you.

Sometimes when I’ve worked with clients that image looks like a black box of filth that the angels carry upward.  When they get into the heavenly realms, they open the box and out fly hundreds of butterflies.  It’s a gorgeous sight!  Don’t be afraid to hand over your ick — once the angels and God get a hold of it, it turns into breathtaking beauty!

(That’s how the power of love and forgiveness works — and there will come a time when you will be able to do the very same thing for yourself and for other people!)

As you come back out of the spiral and back into earthly perception, carry these Truths with you throughout your day.  Carry with you the beauty that you are.  Be the beauty.  See the beauty.  Share the beauty.

The angels invite you back into the depths — to share some time with them.  Blessings on your hearts and souls — you are magnificent!

Happy Valentine’s Day!  Sending waves of love to all of you.  Hoping that you can feel love flowing in and out of your hearts today and everyday.

We really are surrounded at all times by our dear angels.  Really.  Even when we’re acting our worst — our most out of alignment.  They never turn their backs on us or judge us.  They only love us and want to help.

When we’re sitting there, head in hands, overwhelmed, depressed, freaking out, they’re there right behind us with their hands on our shoulders and their foreheads resting on the back of our heads.  They’re wise and gentle and loving.  They are what we as humans, in our most evolved possility, may near achieving.

I am so grateful for their constant companionship and for their brilliant guidance (even when I choose to ignore them — why do I do that??).

The good news is that I ignore them for shorter periods of time these days.  So, that must mean that some of their wisdom is beginning to rub off on me!  It continues to be a process of surrender.

My ego loves to be in charge.  It loves to bring me things to freak me out so that I fall back into those old patterns of worry, fear, anger, blame, yak, yak, yak.  You’d think I’d recognize it.  You’d think I’d laugh and say, “Not this time, ego — I’ve got you beat!  I choose to love and trust and not fall into those old ways.”  You’d think . . .

But, I do get there.  And, now instead of it taking several days of whining, blaming, ranting, raving, lamenting, feeling guilty — it only takes about an hour before I find my sanity again.  In fact, now I’m beginning to see the angels out of the corner of my eye/heart/mind in the midst of the freak out.  That’s progress.

I don’t turn my head and fall into their loving wisdom, though — not right away anyway. About an hour later I do.  I realize what a nasty little trick my ego played and that I let myself get tricked again.  Drat.

The angels just chuckle and welcome me back into their embrace, loving me sweetly.  When the dust of the freak out settles and I move into my meditative, receptive place, they’ll tell me what it was all about.  What part was mine — what I need to learn, accept, heal, forgive — and what wasn’t mine — what I need to disconnect from, release, forgive and heal.

It really is a lovely process (minus the freak-out, of course).  There will come a time when the ego will present a trick — like the witch from Hansel and Gretel — and it will look so tempting to bite into, but I won’t do it.  I won’t be tempted.  I’ll just resist and allow a wave of wisdom to pass over me and through me and I’ll know with clarity what I need to forgive, learn, heal, whatever.  I’ll act with wisdom and not add anything that is not love and truth.

I’ve had the experience of it working that way and it feels like a victory!  My vibration begins to soar!  I feel like I can handle anything!  I’m earning my wings.

The same is coming for you.  The more you commit to the path of uniting in spirit with God/Univeral Source Energy/Your Higher Self, the more you will find these unpleasant ego tricks to be easier and easier to recover from.

Not to be a bummer, but just to let you know, the ego is pretty clever.  It will bring you increasingly difficult (but, hopefully subtle) challenges.  It can be tempting to fall into righteous indignation about some of the stuff.  But, when the freak out dust settles and you realize what it was all about, you’ll see it for the trick it was.

Please remember, you are not your ego.  You are an expression of God.  You are a child of the Creator of all there is.  You are love.  You are wisdom.  You are Truth.

And, you are surrounded by protective, loving angels who are on hand to guide you in each step you take (and each word you speak).  It may be a mountain we climb, but we are well equipped for the journey.

Go inward, friends.  Find your connection.  Feel the love that is coming to you this beautiful Valentine’s day.

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